About That Last Post...

Let's just say that chemo hurts and no one told me about that. I heard things like, "you'll have 'crash' days", and "you'll feel tired or worn out", and "you might get sick but they have meds for that", and "it's hard but you'll get through it". I never anticipated the pain...in your bones...in your muscles and joints...and the headaches, wow. Unbelievable...and I was completely unprepared for it. I have been in bed most of the week and today I'm finally beginning to feel like my old self again.

I had to let go of some things this week and that was hard. My goal has been to keep doing what I love doing and this week, all of that went out the window. So I'm in this place where each day is no longer etched out with an agenda...deedee's agenda. Only God knows what tomorrow holds. And even though that's the way it ought to be, I love having a plan. I love knowing what's around the corner. And I'm guessing I'm about to learn to face life with a little less certainty. It won't be easy for this predictably routine girl, but I am learning such cool things about my Father...and that has been the goal all along: to know Him more.

This is an excerpt from my devo today with my BFF, Oswald Chambers.(He totally gets me!):

"As servants of God, we must learn to make room for Him-to give God 'elbow room.' We plan and figure and predict that this or that will happen, but we forget to make room for God to come in as He chooses....Do not look for God to come in a particular way, but do look for Him...Live in a constant state of expectancy, and leave room for God to come in as He decides."

Thanks for praying...it is truly my source of strength. And when I was too exhausted to read one more passage of scripture, your sweet comments, emails & text messages saved the day. I'm crazy about you!

One Down, Three to Go!

Hey Blog Buddies,

Thank you for praying! Today was my first chemo treatment and it went great. I had none of the side effects that could potentially happen and even the drugs that should've caused me to be sleepy did not take effect. I got to catch up on women's ministry stuff, text and email, visit with friends and open gifts! It was not what I had pictured for my first chemo day! We celebrated at Hester's Cafe afterwards!

My sweet BAF friends sent the biggest care package you've ever seen. I got pajamas from Victoria's Secrets (oo la la), bath & body wash, perfume, lipstuff, starbucks gift card & mug, itunes gift card, a scarf, a gift certificate to Woodhouse Spa, a pillow, a soft, fuzzy blanket for chemo days, a book from sweet Sunny, & Aaron made me a DVD of good movies! And the best part was a gift bag overflowing with cards and letters that everyone wrote to me. It was the most precious gift.

In the chemo room, there were recliners lining the wall, set up in a circle around the room. You got to pick your own recliner.(I know...the perks of having cancer!) I looked around and noticed there were no friends there my age..and they were all asleep! So fortunately, my friends Mandy and Monica hung out with me and livened up the place a bit. Byron was worried that we were being a distraction, but not possible. My chemo buddies were sawing logs! And snoring! They had no clue that there was a party going on!!!

So thank you all for your prayers, your support and your encouraging words that fill my inbox everyday. I love you all and I am so grateful for you. Your friendship has truly made this journey much sweeter.